A Dream within a Dream

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow—
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream:
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand—
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep
While I weep—while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save

One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?
- Edgar Allen Poe

Ignorance is bliss

Everyone I've ever talked to has always said it better to have loved and lost than never loved at all, and i agree. But Day in and Day out i seem to doubt that truth. Whats done is done and i would never trade a second of it, however like anything you fall harder than you rise, gravity. I know im talking to myself, but thats how its been for the last 11 months.
For now
With great appreciation
Mr. Jensen

To whom ever I've ever hurt or blessed

To Whom ever can read this is my statement. I struggle every day with this conflict inside of me. The light and dark parts of me. The darkness wants to come out so badly as it once did, a sick and twisted enjoyment. But the light seems to prevail on most occasions. I've been happy but one, once that I can remember it lasted only briefly but I strive to get it back every day, some day. When walking in the street there are two shadows, one that precedes and one that succeeds. And i always try to be the one in front but it is always just out of reach. The one that follows is always there begging me back, just waiting for me to lie down and it to become one with me again. The brief moment where I stand beneath the light is where the shadows align and make me. This battle rages on to keep standing but ever once in a while I sit down, and become closer to what I try to run from. I know I am capable of great evil and destruction and make this my written apology to all. But to all whom I've met, it is you who keep me standing. Even if you are no longer in my life, i hope one day things can be fixed but the memory of you still keeps me going. And to all I may ever encounter I am sorry if I ever hurt you, it is not the me I try to be. No matter how much i run I will never never reach that next shadow so I will live my life in neutral grounds attempting to be the best person I can and patching up what I may have broken. I just want you to know that the war that rages, wages, in me is something most will not feel the extent of. I must keep my faith in God and my friends and hope that the street light does not go out or I will have become consumed in my shadow and my faith will be lost. If there is one thing I could wish for it would be to have my preceding shadow be not so out of reach. To all my friends I need you more than you can ever realize, and I love you more than I will ever tell you. This is my statement.

Tyler Jensen

Alone on Valentines day

Now I don't mind being single. At all. Though i do miss having someone there to talk to, or call. Someone to be intimate with ya know? Any ways i love the freedom of being single though as well. You feel like you can socialize better, or at least i do. But there is one thing that kinda got me down this hallmark holiday. It was the reminder of what it felt like to be in love. Not me personally but there were several girls, that I've been talking to about relationships and advice and what not for a little while now. But I'm also friends with the guys that are interested in them and visa versa. What got me down more or less was everyone talking about what they were doing, what they hoped would happen, what they should do, and everything like that. It just reminded me of everything i once felt. Its hard but i press on. I just hate getting caught in this middle where i wanna be with some one but i also wanna be single.

I just feel a little left out is all.