To whom ever I've ever hurt or blessed

To Whom ever can read this is my statement. I struggle every day with this conflict inside of me. The light and dark parts of me. The darkness wants to come out so badly as it once did, a sick and twisted enjoyment. But the light seems to prevail on most occasions. I've been happy but one, once that I can remember it lasted only briefly but I strive to get it back every day, some day. When walking in the street there are two shadows, one that precedes and one that succeeds. And i always try to be the one in front but it is always just out of reach. The one that follows is always there begging me back, just waiting for me to lie down and it to become one with me again. The brief moment where I stand beneath the light is where the shadows align and make me. This battle rages on to keep standing but ever once in a while I sit down, and become closer to what I try to run from. I know I am capable of great evil and destruction and make this my written apology to all. But to all whom I've met, it is you who keep me standing. Even if you are no longer in my life, i hope one day things can be fixed but the memory of you still keeps me going. And to all I may ever encounter I am sorry if I ever hurt you, it is not the me I try to be. No matter how much i run I will never never reach that next shadow so I will live my life in neutral grounds attempting to be the best person I can and patching up what I may have broken. I just want you to know that the war that rages, wages, in me is something most will not feel the extent of. I must keep my faith in God and my friends and hope that the street light does not go out or I will have become consumed in my shadow and my faith will be lost. If there is one thing I could wish for it would be to have my preceding shadow be not so out of reach. To all my friends I need you more than you can ever realize, and I love you more than I will ever tell you. This is my statement.

Tyler Jensen