A Series of Random, but Predetermined Events

So today I was thinking about life and the paths you must take. Recently a philosophy was brought to name. When I thought about this philosophy I realized that my thoughts were primarily centered around this thought process. It's called determinism and determinism is the philosophical proposition that every event, including human cognition and behavior, decision and action, is causally determined by an unbroken chain of prior occurrences. Basically I understand it as a few other theories that are tied into it.

The first concept it revolves around is essentially predestination. This is destiny and fate all tied into; destiny being where you end up, and fate being how you got there. I believe full heartily about this. Sure one reason may be my Christian belief system, but that’s not the reason as to why. The reason I believe in predestination is because nothing would be as it is today if such a thing as "chance" existed. Chance or coincidence leaves a sour taste on my tongue. It makes me feel as if there is no purpose to live and that all this is luck, or accidental. Again not because I believe in God but because I believe everything has a purpose in its existence, it’s built into us. It makes us feel compassion and hate. If we didn't have a sense of purpose built into us then we wouldn't feel compelled to become someone or something, and make a difference. It’s just the way we are.

It is not by chance that you are reading this, nor that you have stuck around to read this much either. So it means that you are curious as to my view point on the topic and after you finish this you will dwell on my concepts of though either deeming them ridiculous and shoving them off, or affirming them developing you own though about it. Either way I have made a difference in your life at this moment and whether it affects you now or later is what leads to my next point.

Everything is connected in some way by something either existent or non-existent. Chaos theory is built on this concept. Think of life as a dust bunny or hair ball. Each hair or particle has a length, some long and some short. This represents life. Now as your looking at the hair ball you can see that everything is connected; not directly of course but in some way or it wouldn't be a ball. It would fall apart. Now you, yourself, are one strand of hair. You can see that you bend in different ways, and that other hairs are touching you in different places, some running intertwined for an amount of time. This is how your life is. It has a starting and ending point, and different people come and go. As one person comes in your life it may cause a curve changing you and the direction you go. You may also notice that other people’s lives (hair) end on yours indicating that you were present at this time or shortly their after. In life this freaks people out. You may not know them but that is how you are connected, and most likely they stir a though process that causes you to think putting another curve or change in your life. It’s not an exotic concept it’s a realistic one and if you think about, you will agree.

This is my justification, how I have come to believe in determinism. And some of you may struggle with the thought that you are not in control that everything has been pre-laid out. Right? Well here is a contradicting thought process that I believe ties in as well. You see you really do have control, but it’s a complicated time-space continuum thing. By doing everything you have done, making every decision you have made is the reason as to why you are thee. It has placed the rocks underneath you feet and pulled the pickles off your sandwich, but without it you would be nothing; in simpler terms you can regret anything unless, key term, you are unhappy about everything that has happened after that point you regret. Without that "regret" happening you wouldn't be here, you wouldn't have the relationships with your friends, everything would be completely different.

And this my friends is called chaos theory. This is the theory that everything makes no sense until you see the end. At which point you will see that everything is connected, everything does relate, and everything had a purpose in your life, whether it affected yours specifically or someone else’s. You see its chaos theory that any of this would make sense. How can life be predetermined if we have free thought and free choice? How does me making a decision as minor as spitting my gum on the ground or placing a grammar error in a sentence change the course of someone else’s life? It’s completely mind boggling, and randomly secure. A series of random, but predetermined events has brought us here today, made you read this blog, and should make you comment. :) But in this mess of symbols and thought it can all be simplified to one word.

Music as a Motive

Its quite fascinating how music influences the mind. Recently i, for a change, have not been stuck in one type of music groove for a long period of time. I am usually the person who will listen to an artist or genre until i kill it. But recently I've been switching around quite a bit. I've been into, lately, techno, ska/reggae, and powerful classics deriving from the piano.

I really enjoy the techno when i'm either driving or with the right group of people. Its nerdy i know but its a fun music that just gets you all energetic. Granted some of the songs are cheesy but hey if they have a good beat why not.
Ska/reggae is also another one i like to listen to with friends, driving, or at home doing chores. This is music thats fun to dance to and also get me hyped up. I also enjoy the bluntness of most of the songs. They tell a story about something in life or an emotion we feel. It puts a brighter outlook on the dim.

Finally, the newest addition is this powerful classics via the piano addiction. Music similar to Debussy, and Chopin, and Beethoven. Just powerful emotional classics that move and sway the brain. Contracting thoughts only from deep within the cortex of your brain. It make me feel classy and inelegance with out the lack of either. One that comes to mind is Michael Montes who composed the short pieces called journey for a cannon commercial. Very powerful just wish it was a bit longer.

I love music, the emotions it makes you feel and how it controls you on the most sub conscience level. It can be an evil or a good all depending on the person and what their listen to. So why not listen to happy music, and broaden you spectrum of listening. Who knows you may find something new you like.

Not expecting the unexpected

Recienly I have become friends with a person i wouldn't have though of being friends with. It wasn't that I hated him it was just that were were always in competition. Constantly fighting and agueing of the most senceless crap. I also didn't trust him because I saw him as the person he portayed himself as and not ther person he way. Buy anyway i never really though about it. 

In the last 3 weeks though he has become one of my best friends ever, after we realized how much we had in common and how our colors really were. It goes to show that just when u think nothing will change life throws a curve ball. 

Growing Older and Standing Still

  My my my has it been a long time since I’ve had a chance to sit down and breathe. As I look back at the past year, I’m having trouble remembering everything that happened. Everything I participated in and accomplished. It’s quite remarkable how fast it went actually. I’ve noticed a trend, that when you get older, time seems to get progressively faster. I remember when I was a kid in elementary school, watching time just crawl by. It seemed like I had time to do just about anything. Then when I got to junior high, it seemed to go by a little faster but at least I saw change. 

  High School though has gone by extremely fast. Now that I think about it, I think it has to do with the mode of transportation at the time. In elementary school you start out with your feet. You progress to a scooter or skateboard, and eventually a bike. In junior high you might get your first 10 speed bike, but nothing change extremely. Then in high school you get your car. And you start out with your permit, driving periodically. But then you get your license and it’s like you have just floored life; each year pass faster than the previous.

   Anyway, this year has been my fastest year, ever. First semester of my senior year went faster than I could think and I have absolutely no idea how it happened. I’m sitting here thinking about every major thing that has happened in 2008 and I quite honestly astonished. I can't believe my first serious relationship has lasted almost a year and is as strong as ever. I won two first place awards at the state science fair last year in March. I got my first "F” as a grade ever (intentionally, though it’s a long story). I got a opportunity of a life time doing a paid internship at Biodesign in a lab I absolutely loved that took a two hour round-trip commute every day to. I continued to work as a lab tech at my school in August. I took my first real college course at MCC last semester. I have completed so many experiments, labs, and learned so much in the last year it utterly incomprehensible. And to end it i had one the best Christmas breaks ever. 

   I spent two weeks day and night, with my beautiful girlfriend. We spent week one in Az saw a few great movies and had a great time. Then week two we went back to her place in Co where we were knee deep in snow in 20 degree weather that I absolutely loved. Overall it was so relaxing and I enjoyed every minute of it. I was so relaxed that the second my head hit my pillow my returning night I layed wide awake for 2 hours contemplating and worrying about life and all the trouble I had left behind.

   The most important thing that I learned this past year was that no matter what happens, good or bad never regret it. First of all I’d be a waste of time for something you couldn't change. But more importantly, everything happens for a reason. It’s all a chain effect that would remove you from the universe if ever undone. And also that Love makes life so much more vibrant and beautiful; much more worth living.

Until next time... Keep on Truck n’

 

Paradise

Curious, isn't it? How beautiful and magnificent a castle can be, a place of protection, elegance, and power. A castle stands for everything we would like to be known for. But...that’s not the part of this image I want you to focus in on, nor to write this blog on.

The part of this image I want you to focus on is the leaves, and the perspective. It seems that in life we focus and strive for this paradise, Even if a castle isn't your forte substitute in your "paradise". Back to what I was saying; look at the leaves, the perspective. It’s looking from a distance. You can clearly see that they are not in the paradise they strive upon.

By this metaphor I mean to say as people we tend to keep working, keep striving for the better. And that’s not a bad thing but look at the extent. It becomes a bad thing when all you do, goal after goal is keep finding things that are better and not acknowledging how far you have come, and the beauty and paradise you live in. Reflect upon where you have come from, what you have accomplished. Sit back and take a deep breath. As my government teacher asks every day, "What are you, and what can you do?"
We reply, "I am a miracle, and I can do anything."

You get one life. Only one to make it count for something, and you are free to choose what that something is. Just make sure its something you want, something sincere, and do everything in you power and your will to achieve it. You are a miracle, by the very nature of God (or by chance if thats your cup of jo)

Until later.

Mr. Jensen

Four Letter Words Change the World

Four letter words, some of the smallest and taken for granted words in the English world. The whole world, for that matter, but they’re not four letter words in other languages. But ya, some of the most powerful words are the smallest and simplest words. They’re the most blunt and devastating as well. Let’s take a look at a one that is on my mind.

Love

    Love is the foundation of everything we know. It is something we are taught to do when we are little, and definitely something we take for granted. Dr. Sues said, "When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams." It is so true, for the last nine months I have been in love with my best friend, my clone, my girlfriend. These last few months have been some of the hardest in my life, and love has guided me through them.

    Don't get me wrong, it’s nothing something simple, or cheesy, my love, and love in general. It is something that can't be taken for granted, and something you feel is different from anything else. Kd is the person I want to, and will spend the rest of my life with, and no one can tell me different.

    I think the reason as to why our relationship works is because we started out as best friends. Of course it started as an infatuation but it progressed into something, and digressed into the best friendship of my life, and then progressed in the love i now have.

     It is so far beyond a high school relationship. Sure we have disputes that we have to work out. If you look at love metaphorically, it’s like a day. In the morning, you wake up all dazed and confused, and have no idea what’s going on or is going to happen, yet you still go with it. You don't give up at the first wrong thing, you push through. Your day can be going great or just horrible but when you lay your head down at night, everything feels right and connected. You watch the sun set into fire, as it seems, and there are two things you know are true; there is a God, and there is love.

KD Cox, is my world, that will never change.

If I had to choose between loving you, and breathing, I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU.

If I was a flower growing wild and free

All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.

And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen

All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

If I was a flower growing wild and free

All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.

And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen

All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride

Take me by the hand and stand by my side

All I want is you, will you stay with me?

Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,

The rumble of your water would be my call.

If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow

Just as long as you were with me, when the cold winds blow.

All I want is you, will you be my bride

Take me by the hand and stand by my side

All I want is you, will you stay with me?

Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod

If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.

If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug

And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride

Take me by the hand and stand by my side

All I want is you, will you stay with me?

Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.

If you were the love, I'd be the desire.

If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,

And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride

Take me by the hand and stand by my side

All I want is you, will you stay with me?

Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

Barry Louis Polisar - All I Want Is You

377,000,000

377,000,000 is the quantity of results for purpose on Google’s search engine and 6.684 billion human beings are looking for it. We thrive off the fact that somehow, some way we are needed. Those who live inside will come across no purpose, for the only thing beyond them is earth, and God, and neither of them necessitate you. So the other option is existing for others, humility if you will. I guarantee you; those who advocate, and facilitate other people find purpose. People in the armed forces that battle for the privileges of others, prepared to lay down their lives for their kin of nation. The missionaries that demonstrate their faith and good will, not through preaching on a soap-box, but philanthropic abet absent from home; away from their family and comfort. All other non-profit aid groups that set out out and jeopardize their well-being for others, like the Peace Corps. It is these people that die with resolve that their entire life wasn’t a waste, that they administered worthwhile actions and their mark has been contrived. Nick Vujicic said, “If you put your happiness into temporary things, then your happiness will be temporary” and he was entirely accurate. Endow your life in sententious actions and not palpable prosperity. Earthly possessions will not even pass through your psyche on your death bed I assure, but those you debilitated or assisted will. Find yours!